Weekly Update - Week 36

(end of week 35/start of week 36)

On the Scale
Lost this week: .8

Starting Weight: 265.6
New Weight: 187.4
Total loss: 78.2


These past two weeks have resulted in only a 2 lb. loss. But that is a loss and I'm happy about that much. I know I haven't been giving it my all so it's not a surprise. My head is not entirely in this and I'm not 100% sure why. I really do think it's just that I've been doing this for a long time now and it's starting to lose it's excitement. I keep waiting for the push that will be like a new beginning for me but it hasn't come yet. Any advice from those of you who have experienced this would be helpful.

In My Kitchen
I've been slacking in the meal planning/trying new things arena. I'm ready to get back to grilling regularly even though the patio is still snow covered. We've eaten out alot in the past few weeks and I'm tired of it. Our healthy eating out choices are somewhat limited and I know I can make better meals at home so I need to just stop being lazy. I have been taking a bite or two of the kids food recently - that is a new problem. I don't think I feel deprived but maybe I do.

At the Gym
Great workout yesterday, another one tonight. I'm considering joining a 2nd gym to take advantage of some of their classes. We belong to Planet Fitness which is great when you want to just use the equipment and be left alone. But I'm thinking that I may enjoy taking a class or two and there's another reasonably priced gym right down the street that I could try for that. I won't give up Planet Fitness because of their hours but it might be good for me to have more options too.

In My Closet
I did the big purge last night. I got rid of almost everything that doesn't fit. The few things I kept are for before and after photos. Except for three tops that I can't part with... I keep telling myself they still look ok but I know they don't. I did a little shopping and I went through a huge stack of things given to me by someone recently. I just love clothes now. My husband also cleaned out and we have a GIANT bag filled with stuff to donate. Fun times. I tried on a dress that I bought for my brother-in-law's wedding 9 years ago. I was 3 mos. pregnant at the time. I wore it also when my son was 6 months old. As I started to slip it on I was prepared to squeeze into it - but it was huge. I was swimming in it. What a strange experience. My mind has not caught up with my body and I find it odd. I really do still think of myself as weighing 265 lbs. Every time I input my weight on the treadmill it surprises me that I'm not over 200 lbs. I have serious spring fever and I want to buy all kinds of cute things - but I just can't yet. I hope to be down a size or two before the serious warm weather. I need hold out for that.

Goals and Challenges
I need to challenge myself to work harder at the gym and I need to be serious about my calorie counting. Most days I eat the same things - and I know I'm eating healthy foods and staying in a reasonable range of calories - usually between 1200 - 1600 but I know that I need to stay closer to 1200 if I want to lose at a steady pace. So here I am again with the same challenge. How do I push past this? If I stay here I will lose 1 lb. or less a week. I know slow and steady wins the race but that is just too slow . . . I envisioned that kind of slow down happening after I hit 100 lbs - but not yet.

Weekly Update - Week 35

(end of week 34/MIDDLE of week 35)

On the Scale
Lost this week: 1.2

Starting Weight: 265.6
New Weight: 188.2
Total loss: 77.4


This is my weekly update - a few days late. Computer issues and a general lack of down time have brought me to this late date without an update. I did lose this week. Not nearly tas much as I expected but it's still a loss. I'm not in the zone I need to be in if I want to make my April 16 birthday goal but I have no choice but to keep on truckin'.

All the details of last week and this one are blending together in my mind so I guess I'll save my thoughts for the next update.

Weekly Update - Week 34

(end of week 33/beginning week 34)

On the Scale
Lost this week: .6

Starting Weight: 265.6
New Weight: 189.4
Total loss: 76.2

I'm in the 180s! .6 is not a great loss but I like the number. The scale has been up and down all week long. As I posted yesterday in Refresh, this has been a not-so-good week. It seems complicated but I don't know if it really is. Either way, yesterday was a line-in-the-sand kind of day. A restart of sorts. I think I'm discovering that there really is a kind of funk that creeps in now and then where losing weight seems tedious and not as important as it really is. Those times are coming closer and closer together as I lose more. That increase means that I need to focus all the more - I need to do my best every day because who knows how I'll feel tomorrow and what those feelings will do to my end result.

In the Kitchen
Again the previous week in the kitchen is a blur. I've decided to start tracking and planning the meals I cook more regularly. Usually I just plan a certian number of meals and then cook what I feel like cooking out of that list. I'm going to start to try to stick to my plan for a given day - but at the very least I want to write it down since I have a horrible memory these days.

At the Gym
What gym?

In My Closet
So 14 is not as comfortable as 16 so I'm still in between. But I like my clothes and I will have all I need until Spring.

Goals and Challenges
I wrote about my goals for the week yesterday but I'll list them again here:

1. Fresh start with all the enthusiasm I had when I first began in June

2. Wear my bodybugg and track all my calories

3. 1200 - 1600 calories with a 1000+ calorie defecit each day

4. Train for the 5K I'm signed up for in April


So far, so good. I went to the gym last night for 30 minutes of cardio and about the same for strength. I did a little running using C25K. I had gotten all the way up to the end of week 8 and then stopped. I backed up to week 4 to get ready for the 5K I signed up for in April - just 3 days before my birthday and my goal of a 100 lb loss. That should be a great weekend :)


I had a 1300 calorie day yesterday. That was awesome. If I could do that every day I'd be really happy.

Refresh

Last week was tough for me. The week before I had worked really hard at the gym but had a relatively small loss. That is always discouraging for me. My mother had surgery on Monday and my kids both got sick. That means no schoolwork (homeschool) for them, pretty much all week. My mother is our gym child care so I would have had to go by myself all week which normally I would try to do but with all the obstacles combined with my general discouragement from the annoying results on the scale, I just threw in the towel... sort of. I gave myself permission to eat whatever I wanted from my healthy foods. No counting at all. I still measured my portions but I know went over my calories by a few hundred each day. And I didn't workout at all. I feel lazy and undisciplined. Blah! I didn't like what I saw this morning but I'm not going to "officially" weigh in until tomorrow. I feel like I should be smarter than to waste a whole week. It was unnecessary.

The bright side of all this is that I didn't eat anything I regret as far as what I ate. I know I ate too much but I didn't lose it completely and get high calorie takeout or anything like that. But the dark side is pretty dark considering how far I still have to go. I didn't learn anything this week that will help me - at least I don't think I did - I just checked out. I feel like I need to go on a diet - lol - seriously. I've been doing this long enough that the way I eat seems very NORMAL to me and I feel like I need to change things and lose some weight. Today feels like a restart of sorts. Like a whole new endeavor to lose weight. I think I need to not think about how far I've come and focus for while on how far I have to go. I think looking back at my accomplishments was contributing to my feelings of boredom, complacency, annoyance with the whole thing. I thing looking back at past success is valuable, but for me, right now, I need to look forward (and in the mirror).

I had a great breakfast, I'm getting a good start on my water, I'm going to the gym tonight, my new iphone is coming today (unrelated but super exciting). Fresh start. There is no room for excuses. Onward and downward.

Goals:

1. Fresh start with all the enthusiasm I had when I first began in June

2. Wear my bodybugg and track all my calories

3. 1200 - 1600 calories with a 1000+ calorie defecit each day

4. Train for the 5K I'm signed up for in April


Weekly update after my weigh-in tomorrow